I’m starting to wonder if anyone will even show up for my
wedding. My bachelorette party was canceled due to people having other obligations/more-important
things to do. A wedding shower never happened. Moreover, my own family is
complaining about and refusing to attend a small family party being held
tomorrow. It makes me want to cry.
I don’t know why I’m so surprised by all
this, though. It’s not anyone's fault and I don’t blame anyone. It’s just that,
things with me are never a big deal. I’m always second rate, third best, and
most forgotten. That’s simply how my world has always worked. I thought this
time it would be different. After all, you do only get married once. I’m not
asking the world to revolve around me; in fact, I don’t even want it to. That’s
way too much pressure. I just wish that I’d get the same special treatment and
attention as everyone else. Weddings are supposed to be a happy and joy-filled
time and instead, I’m just sad. Still trying to Choose Happy, but it’s becoming
harder and harder.
-Cynic Ninja
