Roller Coaster

What do you write when it's been so long and the words are all backed up?
How do you get started?
How do you know what needs said now and what can wait?

What do you write when you've learned to live with the stuffing and keeping inside?
How do you put pen to paper when there feels no purpose?
How do you scratch out letters,
                                           string together syllables,
                                                                          and hope cohesion results?

What do you write when the past year has been a
                                                                                  r                                a
                                                                                     o                       o        s
                                                                                         l                c                t
                                                                                            l        r                         e
                                                                                                e                                  r

      of emotions you couldn't have predicted?
How do you make sense of the will of Him, the one who put you here and gave you all
                                                                                      and in the next breath took away?
How do you remember to breathe and let Him when the next breath is caught on a sob?




-Cynic Ninja

Brother

I hide my tears when I say your name
but the pain in my heart is still the same.

Though I smile and seem carefree,
there's few who miss you more than me.



-Cynic Ninja