If I had known
that was my last sight of you,
my last hug,
my last smell…
If I had known
that would be the last time I could ask you about cars;
what is this noise; dash light; smell,
what fluid to buy…
If I had known
that would be my last time hearing the excitement
in your voice
as you describe the plans for your jeep,
listening to you dream of more tools and equipment and
cars,
hearing the roar of your bike as you leave the driveway…
If I had known
you wouldn’t always be a call away to verify my childhood
memory
that no one
else remembers;
(did you lock everyone out of the house or was it me?)
or a text when I forget which is the best weather app for
my phone…
If I had known
that was my last sight of you,
my last hug,
my last smell…
If I had known…
-Cynic Ninja
