Scarlet Letter

Like the fictional character from The Scarlet Letter, I felt like I had a big red A emblazoned across my chest at church today. Like everyone could see exactly what I was. Once again, the chest and abdomen restricted feeling happened immediately following the words being shared. I was so hyper-focused on breathing that it was essentially impossible to hear the rest of her words. I didn’t come to church to have that come up and think about but that’s what I got. I wanted to get up and leave. Not hear any more. Not think any more. But that would draw more attention to a red letter A walking out of the room early.

-Cynic Ninja